Life right now

I am so overwhelmed, sometimes, with so many things running through my head. I ask myself, what am I doing to progress in this life? What exactly is love? So many people have such difference perceptions of it. It is most recognizably taken for lust, these days, which makes it hard for anyone to decipher what the difference is. I once thought I was in love; looking back, I have to say that I was one of the many who had mistaken it for infatuation. I don't even know what that kind of love is; I know Jesus Christ loves me and died for me, but I haven't done that for someone, so i feel it is hard to accurately attest the possibility of coming within range of this type of love. I know it is possible, but i seem to distance myself from affection of a woman. I went through hell, thinking I was in love, when I wasn't; I don't want to do that again. If I had greater faith, I would have listened to my heavenly father and would have ended things when they should have ended. I am afraid of doing that again and I am afraid of hurting someone that I would care so much about. Heavenly father, this is my plea, help me!!! I like writing things down on here, I feel more open minded to the spirit. I want to also note that none of this is suppose to make sense, it is merely a way for me to run things through my mind, that I may be in touch with myself, mentally, physically, emotionally, and most importantly- spiritually. I know I have felt love, I just wish something I am not sure of yet. Someday, when I get there; I will make note of it. Mooooooseeeee!!!! What the heck is going on in your head??? Sort things out in prayer!!!

Heavy Burdens

I recently started reading the New Testament; I am so grateful for the things I have learned and been refreshed over. Lately, I have been so stressed, I am going to school full-time and I am the President of an amazing club called: Save The dolphins. It sounds like a joke, but it is a serious issue; YouTube "the Cove." Anyhow, it seems as though some people who are so crucial to the progression of this club are bailing out; I am feeling the burden of this starting to fall upon my shoulders. Thankfully, I have been reading my scriptures; as I was thinking this Mathew 11:28-30 was brought to mind: "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." I know that I am a hard headed person, but I KNOW my savior will always be there for anyone, including myself.

Tom And Huck

I often find myself judging people, based off the first, quick, experience I have with with them. Then, it seems that as I get to know them more, I tend to like them. This is a problem I am trying to work on. I remember when I met my best friend Creighton; I thought he was weird, then 5 months later, we started hanging out and have been such good friends ever since. Abraham Lincoln said it best: "I don't like that man. I must get to know him better." Here I was judging someone and for some reason, I gave them a chance and now we are known as Tom and Huck: best friends.