Camping and the Temple = Nothing Better

Yesterday, I went to the temple and just chilled on the grounds. It was a good experience for me. It is funny how just going to the temple grounds can change my perspective of life. I am seeing the greater importance of marriage and staying out of debt. Not just when I am there, but all the time. Now does this mean I want to get married right away? no. But instead of going on 2 dates a year, I have been trying to go on more dates and just prepare myself for when the time comes. I have been going out with a lot of girls lately, but I don't really feel the chemistry with most of them, so I am just chilling. We'll see what happens.

Beyond that, I really want to go camping!!! Why does it have to be winter??? freak, I wish I was in New Zealand or something... Maybe Thailand! I hear there is amazing climbing there. My friends and I are planning a trip there this summer, but we'll see. I may try and get an internship, instead.

I took this picture this past summer. It up at Ruth Lake in the Uinta mountains, Utah. It was amazing. We met a family passing by in the morning and they told us to meet up with them later and climb some new routes they had set up. We were the first to send them. It was pretty cool. They were prob around 5.11 b or c, but I did it. ha. We were on the left end of the mountain in the back ground. 

Life is Beautiful

I want to live a life like this man! Travel the world, help people, preserve habitats, own a business, and be completely happy. Topping it off with a family that I can come home to everyday. I just gotta find that girl. I am so freaking picky though... It is a problem that stems from early childhood. Wanna hear my reasoning? good! When I was around 5 years old, which I actually remember, my mother would literally go through magazines of models and ask me if I thought they were beautiful, and I would say NO!!! haha. She would then ask me, "who is beautiful?" My reply: "you and AMBER!" my oldest sibling. She really is though!!! here is a picture of her:

She is the Brunette; 43 years old now! looks like she is in her late 20's. Those two middle blondes are her daughters, Tonya   and Lisa. 

Even when it came to candy in my 3rd grade class.. My teacher Ms. Jackstien would give treats to the class and I would always be the last kid to choose, cause I couldn't decide which one I wanted most. In some regards, I feel that it is a bad habit, but at the same time, a good one. I do have a few girls I am interested in, but the main one... well.... She doesn't know, and will sometimes act like she is and then as soon as I express interest, she seems to avoid me; which honestly, is fine. It sucks, but I understand that some people are just really flirty and don't mean what they portray. I know I do that a lot. So I suppose I'll just find another one out there, unless maybe she comes around. Either way, life will go on and I will be happy with someone. I just hope they want to live a life that involves the outdoors and service.

Mmmmm.... I could live and die here. I <3 Scandinavian culture. It doesn't help that I have two roommates from Sweden.

Life

Gosh... Life can be so hard sometimes. But having a testimony of something greater than yourself can raise you to such heights, that even the Greek pagan gods, themselves, could not reach with a beacon of hope. Last night I had this spiritual confirmation that was beyond any one that I have ever experienced.

I am not a person who ever really feels that warm burning in my bosom or tingling skin, but I suppose last night was an exception for the big guy upstairs. I was feeling really down for something that I honestly shouldn't have, but I decided to pray, and it made so much of a difference. 

I know that pretty much nobody reads this so, I am not as reserved about sharing my feelings or divulging too much information. but I just want anyone who reads this to know (struggling or not) that there is a heavenly father who loves you and wants you to be happy in this, and return to be happy with him in the next. If you have the strength to stand, you definitely have the strength to drop to your knees and pray. Do it! Even if you do not know how, he will hear your hearts desires. If you would like to know how to pray, or just a basic step-by-step process, message me. I am going to try and get back into blogging, so I'll check here more often.

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P.S. Merry Christmas: Jars of Clay-- Christmas for Cowboys!

WEEPIES

I LOVE the WEEEEEPIES. I went to their concert the other night and I have not heard a band that is as good they were live, yet. They were so personable and just seemed to really appreciate their fans. The show was so much fun, it was a 300 max capacity; so the setting was much more intimate. I yelled "I love you Deb Talan," and her husband was like "careful!," but laughed. It was a dandy old time. Then after that, we went to "The Pie." I couldn't have asked for better friends and date to go with. That night was bliss.

Life right now

I am so overwhelmed, sometimes, with so many things running through my head. I ask myself, what am I doing to progress in this life? What exactly is love? So many people have such difference perceptions of it. It is most recognizably taken for lust, these days, which makes it hard for anyone to decipher what the difference is. I once thought I was in love; looking back, I have to say that I was one of the many who had mistaken it for infatuation. I don't even know what that kind of love is; I know Jesus Christ loves me and died for me, but I haven't done that for someone, so i feel it is hard to accurately attest the possibility of coming within range of this type of love. I know it is possible, but i seem to distance myself from affection of a woman. I went through hell, thinking I was in love, when I wasn't; I don't want to do that again. If I had greater faith, I would have listened to my heavenly father and would have ended things when they should have ended. I am afraid of doing that again and I am afraid of hurting someone that I would care so much about. Heavenly father, this is my plea, help me!!! I like writing things down on here, I feel more open minded to the spirit. I want to also note that none of this is suppose to make sense, it is merely a way for me to run things through my mind, that I may be in touch with myself, mentally, physically, emotionally, and most importantly- spiritually. I know I have felt love, I just wish something I am not sure of yet. Someday, when I get there; I will make note of it. Mooooooseeeee!!!! What the heck is going on in your head??? Sort things out in prayer!!!

Heavy Burdens

I recently started reading the New Testament; I am so grateful for the things I have learned and been refreshed over. Lately, I have been so stressed, I am going to school full-time and I am the President of an amazing club called: Save The dolphins. It sounds like a joke, but it is a serious issue; YouTube "the Cove." Anyhow, it seems as though some people who are so crucial to the progression of this club are bailing out; I am feeling the burden of this starting to fall upon my shoulders. Thankfully, I have been reading my scriptures; as I was thinking this Mathew 11:28-30 was brought to mind: "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." I know that I am a hard headed person, but I KNOW my savior will always be there for anyone, including myself.